I recently started asking the Lord for a Word of the Day. That is something He wants to show me or teach me about each day. On the first day, the word was Life. I didn’t really know what it should look like or how I was going to conclude each day, but I was ready to start. I looked for life all day long; it was travel day so I was around my whole squad again and I heard about their lives and what God was doing in them. It was raining, so I started thinking about all the life that is nourished by water. It was a pretty cool day reflecting on the life that is sustained by the Lord.
On the second day, I got the word Life again! What the heck? I focused on life yesterday God.. Don’t you remember? It is only day two so maybe I did it wrong the first day and God wanted to show me something else. Well, I didn’t know what else to do so I did the same thing as yesterday… but expecting something different. It wasn’t. It wasn’t until I talked to Him about it, where I realized that it was a question for me, not an observation of others.
His plans are always better than mine. That night at worship, He asked me the question, “Do I have your life?” Well, I am on The World Race, I literally left my life behind me 4 months ago to follow you around the world. But He asked again, “Do I have your whole life? Not just the race, do you trust me with everything?” I was taken back. I am pretty sure He does. But I had stopped thinking about life after the race because I wanted to stay present, and focused on the race and what I am doing here and now. I guess I had suppressed the worry, instead of surrendering it. But I said, “Yes, I trust you, Lord.” I surrendered my life.
Then He shows me my home.
I usually enter into worship by imagining myself walking through the gates of Heaven and then entering into the Throne room sometimes walking, or running, or dancing, or crawling, any way I get in and then I am in front of the Throne, standing, or dancing, or sitting, or on my knees. Once I am in, I praise and worship and dance and then stand in His glory. This time though, I was entering in, but I didn’t see the gate anymore. To be honest, I was a little confused. Where am I? What is going on? Then my vision zoomed out, and I walked out of my house and into the streets of heaven! – Let me reiterate that. The Lord just showed me my house, my home, in heaven. I am home.
I thank Him for the grace He gave me with the same word two days in a row. I praise Him for His persistence in pursuing me and teaching me. I worship Him – the lover of my soul. I dance for Him in the flesh and I know that He sees me and delights in me. And then I stand there. I stand in His Presence overwhelmed by His love for me, in awe of His goodness, and stunned by His beauty. I am Home.
“Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on to the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.” – Philippians 3:12-14
