I have been staring at the scree trying to figure out how to write this blog for what feels like months. In reality I have only been staring at the screen for maybe ten minutes. This part of the race was supposed to be easy, but writing about all the thoughts and emotions I have gone through over the last few months is not as easy to put into words as I imagined it would be.
This is a crazy thing I have signed up to do. There are no words to describe it and what I am feeling when I actually take the time to stop and realize that it is official. I am going to be leaving next July for 11 months to travel to 11 countries. When I first heard about the race last October I knew right away that I wanted to be apart of this amazing mission’s trip. I knew God had placed this trip in front of me for a reason. Soon after that though reality of the trip hit and I decided it wasn’t for me. I mean its a scary world out there and I am very comfortable with my life the way it is. I have a good job, great friends and family ,and I am getting ready to graduate college in a few months. I pushed all thoughts of the race out of my mind and focused my attention on school and our college group at church. Occasionally I might read a blog post or watch a video but I never spent more than a few minutes on the site. I would go days without the race even crossing my mind. Then about two and a half months ago God decided He had had enough of me ignoring this call. He kept me awake all night pushing me to give into the call. Those that know me know how much I love my sleep. My group of friends actually make fun of my sleeping habits on a weekly basis. So when God wouldn’t let me sleep I knew this was big. I remember at one point around 2:30 in the morning actually begging Him to change His mind and just let me sleep. I wasn’t prepared for this trip, I wasn’t equipped to do something this extreme. Living out of a backpack for a year? No way! And then I remembered a saying I have heard many times in the past year “God doesn’t call the qualified, He qualifies the called.” I gave in to the call and honestly could not be more excited. Will it be hard? Absolutely! Will I want to give up? Most likely. But I know that it will be worth every heartache and tear because I know without a doubt in my mind I am doing what God has called me to do. And yes that thought is pretty scary.
Thanks for taking the time to read this little post. I wanted to share how I got to this point and why I made the decision to go on the world race. If you have any questions for me please feel free to shoot me a message and I would be happy to answer your questions as best I can. I look forward to sharing this journey with anyone who wants to come along whether it be prayer support or financial support. Let the adventure begin!! 🙂
