“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”– 2 Corinthians 12:9
I have a confession to make. I am far too inadequate to do what I am about to embark on. Yes, my weaknesses are great, yet His power is much stronger. Therefore, how could I not boast more about what the Lord can do despite these weaknesses? Paul continues on to write “For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong” (2 Corinthians 12:10).
As I’ve been journaling recently, this quote from the movie “Imitation Game” popped into my head: “Sometimes, it’s the very people who no one imagines anything of, who do the things no one can imagine.” And you know what I just started to think, that’s just how God works, using the least likely to make the biggest impact. Then I think of how many times in my life I felt inadequate, but then God says, “That’s exactly where I can use you!” Abba continues to use me despite my past failures, worries, doubts, fears, or even yes my weaknesses. Yet again this is where He says, “Just trust me and hope in what I am doing.”
Many times it is easier to hope in what is going on when life is going well, but when the days are dark and when I feel alone, that’s when hope is needed the most. No matter how buried it gets, or how lost I may feel, I know I must continually hold onto hope. To keep it alive. An important reminder to myself is that I must be greater than what I suffer, for my God is greater and through my sufferings is when He is most glorified. For even when I fail, what better way is there to live?
To lead a group of 53 people throughout the world, is a daunting yet terrific opportunity. To help these men and women learn their identity in Christ and create disciples who make disciples frightens me, yet I am way more excited to fail forward then to run the opposite direction. For I will boast all the more gladly of what my Father can do despite the weaknesses that I have. This journey is going to be one that challenges me to grow in new levels and ways, into further and further dependency on the Lord. For even though in the world, dependency is seen as immaturity, in Papa’s kingdom, dependency on Him is a prime measure of maturity for He designed me to enjoy Him above all else. Therefore I will not fear for my God is with me (Isaiah 41:10). He has whispered to me, saying “But anything that is limiting your potential, abilities, and perception is a false reality. You are not meant to be confined but rather you, my girl, are meant to fly!” I am going to hold so tightly to this truth, that I’m not to limit myself, but rather spread my wings and fly!
