Here I am nearing my first goal of the race, I am about 60% of the way there with about two weeks left to get the other 40%. This is when the test of faith comes in. Discouragement has already tried to spring up in my mind, but also from people’s words. I have been praying since the beginning that God would help me to reach these goals and I have been doing the best I can to try to get the word out there and ask for help.
Asking for help for me is difficult because it is literally the opposite of who I have tried to be my whole life. I always tried to be independent and get things done myself. However, the closer I get with God, the more He shows me that I do need people’s help especially if I want to do a kingdom work such as this.
So, I did my best to put my pride aside and ask as many people that I could think of for their help. I sent out letters, I made posts and tagged people. I used an interactive fundraiser to try to make it more fun, I texted everyone in my phone and I keep sharing my posts on all my social media. I feel like I am doing all that I can. I mean maybe I could call more people and send more letters. But, I have already been feeling like I am bugging people, so I didn’t want to do too much.
Well, someone reached out to me after I posted my last post and told me to stop tagging people in my post or I will be reported and that I need to stop begging people for money and just pray that God will provide it. Her words hit me like a ton of bricks and here came the discouragement rushing it. I thought I was doing good stepping out of my comfort zone. I didn’t think I was harming anyone and that my cause was good enough to ask people for help.
I did feel like I was over asking though because it is rather exhausting for me to continue to ask people for financial help. I have been trying to stay out of God’s way when it comes to my feelings though. I am having a hard time with it now though, because what she said and how she said it did hurt or discourage me a bit.
This is when faith meets the grain and I have a choice to go with it or go against it. I have decided that I will send out letters to more people, that I will post the fundraiser at least once or twice a week until my goal is fulfilled, I just won’t tag anyone anymore. I won’t allow someone to wreck how I feel about what God has called me to do. I won’t allow her to shake my faith, because I know God is faithful and He will provide.
I have learned a thing or two; where God guides He provides, and it may be in the first hour or in the last. However, I trust that He will do what He said He would do because He wouldn’t have brought me to it if He wasn’t going to bring me through it.
I am slightly over $2,800 right now and need to reach $5,000 by July 1st. If you are reading this and feel led to give, share this message, or pray that it would come through, I would really appreciate your support!
I am doing a fundraiser called Adopt-a-Box and Pray the days where you pick a number and donate the number in the box, then I give you 2 dates that go with each box for you to pray for me. I have about 40 boxes left which would help me reach my first goal. Below is the link to Adopt-a-Box and you are able to donate at the top of this page.
Adopt-a-Box: https://www.signupgenius.com/go (Click)
I thank you in advance for all your support and prayers! I also want to encourage you to have faith in what God has spoken into your life, God may not come right when you want Him to, but He always comes right on time!
