The past two weeks have been hard ones for me. Some of the things that have happened, I cannot publicly announce, or I would say them. I’ve been praying and wondering, “God, why do I feel so distant and alone?” But God answered that in a way that I may not have chosen. I realized how some of the people that I care the deepest for, do not care for me to the same capacity. I went into scripture and prayed. I didn’t understand why it felt like my walls were caving in until I looked at the bigger picture. I saw that God takes away some of the things that we put the most value in, so that all we have left to do is turn to him. Although things can get hard, it will always be because I need to focus on God. I’ve been so focused on the future and what’s going to happen, that I have been forgetting to live in the here and now.
