— a little short and simplified story about what this blog is about is that the Lord has been talking to me for the last few weeks telling I have been making the race as comfortable as possible for myself and that’s not what He wants for me. I have been super uncomfortable on the race but yet I have always turned to things/people to make it more comfortable. The Lord told me I needed to surrender my entire life and everything I have to Him, so I did just that. It took me a while to agree and obey but finally I did. It hurts and it sucks, but this is a very challenging journey I’m on and I want to let my supporters in on how I am actually currently feeling on the world race because it’s not all about people being saved, healed and relationships made but it’s also how I’m growing in my relationship with the Father. The lyrics to the song “Weep With Me” have been getting me through this last week. (the words italicized are the lyrics to the song)
weep with me. Lord will You weep with me? — I have wept the last week or so a lot. Lots of tears have fallen off my face- tears of confusion, tears of fear, tears of obedience. Sometimes I feel like I’m alone in this and that nobody actually gets how I feel but the truth is that the Lord does know how I feel and He feels it with me. He really does weep with me.
I don’t need answers all I need is to know that You care for me. — I tell myself I need answers but if I were to fully trust the Father I don’t need them because I am fully trusting Him. I want answers so bad but at the end of the day I just need to know that He cares for me in the mountains and the valleys and that He will see me through.
Hear my plea are you even listening? Lord I will wrestle with Your heart but I won’t let You go. —Sometimes I wonder if the Lord hears my cries. I wonder if He’s even listening. I wrestle with Him so much but he knows that I wont let Him go even in this deep valley.
You know I believe. Help my unbelief. — This is a cycle I go through about every day. I believe that God has a plan for me but then I allow the devil to step in and tell me all the reasons I shouldn’t trust the Lord in this trial.
Yet I will praise you. Yet I will sing of your name. Here in the shadows, here I will offer my praise. — I WILL praise Him, I WILL sing His name, in this dark time I WILL offer Him my best praise. I will praise Him because I know He has the best for me in mind. Thanks God that in the valleys, the mountain tops are in sight.
What’s true in the light is still true in the dark. You’re good and you’re kind and You care for this heart. — I would have this line written on something in my car, in my room, on my mirror, in the bathroom, my computer, my phone lock screen. IT’S SO GOOD. This line offers us so much to thank God for. What is true in the light will forever be true in the dark— the things He promised me in my happiest days are still true promises in the dark days. He’s good and kind all the time. He cares for me in my lament. He cares for my heart. This is probably my favorite line in the song. Its pure gold. Come on somebody! Declare it over yourself! Believe it!!
Lord I believe that You weep with me. — Burdens aren’t meant to be carried alone and since He’s a good good Father I know that He helps me carry my burdens no matter what.
Part the seas, Lord make a way for me. — The Lord has made a way for me in this trial. He has made a way for me to reach Him. He parted the sea so I could walk right through it— and I’ve just started. It can be a long, hard, tiring process but I will make it to the other side!
Here in the midst of my lament I have faith, yes, I still believe that You love me and Your plans are to prosper me and you’re working everything for good even when i cant sing. — In the midst of a really hard time on the race, I still believe that God loves me and that His plans are only for my good even when I don’t fully trust in it.
Turn my lament into a love song. — I know that in the end of this, the Lord will be turning my sadness into the biggest love song for Him. He’s molding me into who He want’s me to be.
From this lament raise up and anthem! — This will be my anthem— telling people about the testimony that the Lord gave me to tell!
I’ll sing it in the darkness — Even now, in this darkness, I am singing praises to God and all that He has done, is doing and will do.
Turn my lament into a love song cause I love you Lord and from this lament raise up and anthem– I love You so much Lord and I know that You’ll turn my lament into an anthem for me to sing loud and proud to declare what You have done for me.
yet I will praise you yet I will sing of Your name — Even when it’s hard I will sing of Your name and praise you — even when it’s hard and hurts so bad.
Right here in the shadows, right here i will offer my praise. whats true in the light is still true in the dark, you’re good and you’re kind you care for this heart. Lord i believe that you weep with me. — My praise is all Yours in the midst of the darkness, Father. You told me what’s true in the light is also true in the dark and that includes Your promises to me when it gets really dark. I know You’re good and You’re kind and that You care for me but sometimes it gets hard to remember. Thanks God that You feel the pain that I feel and that You do in fact weep with me.
I hope and pray that if you’re going through a valley right now and you feel like you’re all alone, just remember that God is right next to you. He feels what you feel. He loves you so much more that I could put into words. Praise Him in this storm, praise Him in this valley, and praise Him when you reach the top of the mountain. He’s in it all. This valley will become an amazing testimony to share about what God did in your life. Never give in, never give up. You’re loved and were in this together.
I believe that this blog post was given to me from God to write because someone needed it— if that’s you please reach out. I want to help you carry this and give it all to God. He cares for you and so do I.
