I had the beautiful blessing of working a DNOW (Discipleship Now) this weekend. DNOWs are weekends for middle and high school students to go to worship and talk sessions, go to small groups, and relax with each other. The theme was "being comfortable with getting uncomfortable".
I have lived a life of comfortable. I don't try out for something or apply for anything if I don't think I have a strong chance of getting what I'm applying for. I buy bananas if I only have 2 left so I know without a shadow of a doubt that I will have a banana for my oatmeal every morning. If I have less than $30 in my debit account, I "have no money" and ask my dad to put money in my account. If I'm low on shampoo, I buy it before I run out just so I never have to be without it. These are just a few silly examples of how I seek to be comfortable in my every day life. And God has been calling me out.
If we are constantly seeking to be comfortable in this world, how can I let God be glorified? How can my beautiful Savior be my all, if I have everything I need in this world. I think this is such an issue in the American church today and I'm not going to pretend like I know the answer.
But I do know that the Lord has called us to give up our lives. John 12: 25 says: "Those who love their life in this world will lose it. Those who care nothing for their life in this world will keep it for eternity." When we seek to be comfortable, we are saying "I love this life. I want to make this life as perfect as it can be right here and right now". I don't want to miss out on how the my Creator, the Lover of my soul and my Savior wants to come through in my life, each and every day. I keep hearing whispers of, "Ally, I know you want this right now but please let me pull through. Please lean on Me, and not your own understanding. Let Me be your comfort, not anything you can rake up for yourself".
It's uncomfortable to step out in faith. It's uncomfortable to say, "Lord the world is trying to convince that I need this, but I choose You. I choose to trust You and all that You are. I choose to trust that nothing this world can offer me compares to You."
A verse that has been cutting me deep over the past few months has been Jeremiah 2:13 "For my people hae done two evil things: They have abandoned Me- the fountain of living water. And they have dug for themselves cracked cisterns that can hold no water at all!" This verse speaks that God is the only One who can satisfy our souls. How many cracked cisterns do I have in my life? Why do I seek to find my satisfaction in an earthly idol that promises to bring death and destruction when I have the fountain of living water offering me TRUE life.
This is a really random blog of things God is teaching me, but it is all based around seeking to be uncomfortable. I don't want to hold on to this world with dear life. I want to let it go and get comfortable with being uncomfortable.
