I’m still trying to get a hang of this whole blogging thing, so bear with me. For the past few days, I’ve been wondering what to write about. I start writing something, put it down for a while, look back at it and try again. I’ve asked the Holy Spirit to share his heart with me, to show me what he wants me to say. Should I attempt to be motivational? Should I share some of the Biblical truths I’ve learned over the past couple of years? What should I do? And today, as I sit at my computer once again starting over, I felt the Holy Spirit nudge me. Write what’s on your heart. Share what you’ve been dealing with. Be vulnerable… Yikes. I’m not a huge fan of being vulnerable with others, but who am I to go against what the Holy Spirit is encouraging. So here it is. Here’s what I’ve been dealing with since the last time I checked in with you guys…
Doubt.
Doubt that I can do the World Race. Doubt that I could be fully funded. Doubt that I could somehow make an impact on others. Doubt that God could use me or even want to.
It’s silly isn’t it? How we allow our thoughts to run wild and all of a sudden we feel lost and overwhelmed. Overcome by fear, we wonder how did I get here? A second ago, I was standing on solid ground, so sure of everything, but now the earth shakes beneath me and I wonder where do I go from here. Do I give in? Or go on?
“For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.” -2 Timothy 1:7
Fear has a way of paralyzing us. We weren’t meant to be afraid. Over and over in the Bible, God tells us “do not be afraid.” So what do you do when you start to feel yourself being overcome by fear? Do you give in to your fears? Or do you go on, despite what you may be feeling? Those are some of the questions I’ve had to ask myself these past couple of months. And I’m here to tell you…
Go on. Don’t give in.
“If you remain in my word, you will truly be my disciples, and you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.” -John 8:31-32
Instead of allowing my doubts to become my truth. I’m trusting the truth of God’s word.
Can I do the World Race?
“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” -Philippians 4:13
Will I be fully funded?
“Moreover, God is able to make every grace abundant for you, so that in all things, always having all you need, you may have an abundance for every good work.” – 2 Corinthians 9:8
Does God really want to use me?
“For I know well the plans I have in mind for you says the Lord, plans for your welfare and not for woe, so as to give you hope and a future.” – Jeremiah 29:11
It’s not always easy, but it’ll always be worth it. What doubts are you allowing to keep you paralyzed in fear? Trade them for the truth. The truth of who God says you are and what you can do. Don’t give in. Go on.
If there’s anything you’re struggling with or need prayer for, please let me know. I’d love to pray for you and help you trade your doubts with God’s truth.
