I remember the feeling so well. The feeling of being left all alone. The feeling of responsibility. The feeling of “i have absolutely no idea what I am doing”. The feeling where I made the decision to fake it til I could make it. The feeling of squad leading.
October 2008 I met a big ole group of people at LAX and in a matter of minutes I went from being just another person in an airport to suddenly being the person in charge of 50+ other people. It was terrifying.
God knew I needed to be terrified to work some junk in my life out. He just knows stuff like that.
Off i went on the best 5 months of my life. Terrified, no clue, faking it to make it every step of the way. And it was glorious. Never before had I so clearly operated as the person he made me to be and never before had I been so uncomfortable and yet extremely comfortable at the same time. A Godly tension.
Last night I sent three of my favorite people off on that same journey. I prayed over them, cried with them and bought them comfort food. Seemed like the only appropriate thing to do, as I know what they are walking into. I know it will be glorious, hard, uncomfortable and amazing all at the same time. Will you pray for Janina, Kyla, and Kim with me? Will you visit their blogs and leave them comments about how awesome they are? (i know you may not know them…but trust me on this one! Just tell them I sent you) Will you fill their support accounts like you filled mine? Will you cheer for them and believe for great things with them? Thanks. I knew you would. Cuz you guys are good like that. 🙂
I am hopping a plane this morning back to GA. My giant purse worked out great. It was breathtaking to be back out in the “World”. Have some thoughts I am trying to put together, but it is not working so well, so I will try again in a few days. GA might seem cooler after being down here–it has been a tad bit warm!
