Urgency. It’s something I never thought I lacked before, but I’ve come to realize that I’m missing out on that feeling and I have been for a while. When I look at people, I always see the best in them. I view them as the best version of themselves…. But I don’t really know them.. I’m just getting a glimpse at a mom smiling as she hugs her kid or a store clerk cracking jokes and I assume they have a great life. There is nothing wrong with seeing the good and joy in the world all the time, but when I do that I gloss over the root of happiness which is Jesus. 1 John 3:16 says “This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us.” Without Jesus we wouldn’t know love and we couldn’t experience true happiness and really be able to have a “great life”. So I’m shaking up my thought process. I’ve stoped viewing people for who they are on the outside and started viewing them as souls in a constant spiritual battle. Wow! That type of thinking demands urgency! Like most of us… I love games and if you put learning material in the form of a game, I personally, will get more out of it. So I’ve started to think of the Thai people I’ve been interacting with daily as pieces in the game of life. Game sounds lighthearted, but this game is more wholehearted and I don’t want it to sound like its just something to joke about because it’s not. If I don’t try my best to tell them about Jesus who will… their seemingly “great” “happy” lives will come to an end and the devil will win the game. My little precious 2nd grade students will continue to believe that Buddha is some god that their families worship so when they get older they should too, unless I can change that. Yesterday I started crying when I walked pass the classroom because I thought of how sweet and innocent they are and how that didn’t matter…. If they don’t know Christ before they die they will go to hell. Wow thats harsh, but I don’t want to sugar coat it because then I’m “glossing over” the urgency of the matter. Yeah…. that thought lit a fire under me and definitely gave me the urgency I’ve been lacking. It was the slap in the face I needed. GOD PLEASE BREAK MY HEART FOR WHAT BREAKS YOURS!!!!! That is something I have to say everyday because it’s to simple to assume things about people to assume that since they look happy they don’t need to hear the good news of Jesus, because just like that I’m letting the devil win and I didn’t even notice it. I went on a run on Thanksgiving Day to try and shake the pain of not being at home off. As I was running, a thought crept into my head of “why am I here” like obviously I know why… but it gets hard sometimes, as you can imagine… then as I turned a corner there was this little Thai boy in my path who had stopped his bike and was just staring at me. That’s when I heard God’s voice so crystal clear and He said, “THIS IS WHY YOU’RE HERE!” So I ran inside grabbed my hackysack and played catch with this boy. His blank stare immediately changed to a smile gleaming with joy when he realized that I wanted to play with him. That smile was contagious and cured all my homesickness in like 2 seconds. Hahaha God has some good medicine. I love it here in Thailand and I’m truly so thankful God chose me for this little mission around the world. I can say that even though I shower with a bucket, walk pretty much everywhere, and sleep on the ground surrounded with bugs I’m blessed!!!! I’m so incredibly blessed!!! I get to pour into these little kids lives everyday and even let them in on a little secret to win the game….a five letter word that changes everything. JESUS !!!!
HELP!!I’m not very good at the whole asking for money thing, but God is teaching me that He has it under control. I don’t know how the money will come in…but I’m confident that it will. I’m in need of 2,330 dollars by December 21st. I know God will provided and that I need to be proactive so I’m asking you to make a donation during this holiday season to help me spread the love of Jesus and build his kingdom. click here to donate.
“But who am I, and who are my people, that we should be able to give as generously as this? Everything comes from you, and we have given you only what comes from your hand.”
1 Chronicles 29:14
THIS IS WHY I’M HERE. THIS LITTLE SMILE MAKES IT ALL MAKE SENSE!
