The last week has been a packed schedule of intense trainings, really great worship sessions, and getting to know the team I’ll be with for the next 3 months. My heart is so full with excitement and expectation for the Lord to move in INCREDIBLE ways in the next 90 days!
Learning alongside 6 other godly passport leaders has been incredibly eye-opening. I am more encouraged to be open and receptive to the things that are true about me instead of terrified of them. I am a leader. I am loved. I am known. I am loyal and dependable. I can walk with humility and also carry influence. I have experience and freedom and hope to give away to those I am leading.
I have been running from trusting myself for most of my life. I believed that I can’t be those things because they come with expectations and responsibilities. I hate feeling as though I let people down, so sometimes I hide, petrified to make a mistake.
But as I got to know my team, a team full of women who the Lord is already calling into courageous leadership, I decided I owed it to them to make sure the mask stayed off. I told them I would fail them because I’m a broken vessel. I told them I was going to step out in boldness, take risks, try new things, and that meant I would also make mistakes. But I care more about growth and authenticity for myself and for them than keeping up a facade that I have it all together. My hope is for that to give my team permission to be bold and to fail as well. Because it’s worth it.
Life isn’t nearly as easy and effortless as social media makes it appear and I don’t really want it to be. The mistakes make life an adventure. Failure keeps you humble and allows you to see that perfection isn’t what people really desire in relationship. You are as loved at your worst as you are at your best. I wish more of the people in my life believed that.
These are the women I am leading. They are absolutely incredible! I’m so proud of them for all they have done already to prepare themselves for this trip. They are hungry for growth and after only 3 days together, I have already seen them love each other so well. I hope I can give as much to them as I know they with give to me.
We leave Atlanta airport at 7:45pm tonight with a 15 hour flight to Qatar and then a 5 hour flight to India. Cheers to a 52 hour travel day(s)!!
Prayer requests:
– Safe travels and an easy recovery for us before we start ministry!
– For India: as beautiful and incredibly sweet as the country and the people are, this country has a lot of darkness over it. We want to bring light and hope to those who need it most. Help us discern how best we can love people well.
