There are a lot of things I would like to say about this month yet at the same time I feel like I am completely at a loss for words. So I figured I'd type and see what happened.
Rwanda was great. This was a month of learning more about me. There was also a never-ending stream of surprises. I felt God calling to me at the beginning of this month. He was saying "Come be with me I have something to show you". Like any other girl longing for adventure I jumped right in. Little did I know that this meant God would be searching my heart and pointing out all the beautiful little things that he placed inside me. Sounds wonderful right? Well it was at times. But over and over again I had to place the lies of Satan I so comfortably believe aside and walk into BEAUTY. What it really means I still don't know. However I have learned that there is a woman inside of me that is beginning to creep out.
So many times this month I found myself asking, "is this really happening right now?". Moments where I was dancing like a mad woman during worship, preaching on the side of a street to a crowd of people, going into people’s homes and praying for them, not only attending but being a greeter at a complete strangers wedding. All of these moments I found myself stepping into the beauty that God has given me. This month I stepped into the most heart wrenching love story between me and God. He has been luring me in closer to him and I have begun to cultivate the beauty I hold inside and step into that adventure of discovering all that God has in store for me.
I think that's what it really means to follow God. Hearing the call to step in to a relationship with him and then doing it. Sometimes that may end up taking you across the world to do mission work, but really, first and foremost God wants us to know the way that he loves us, to know the desires he has placed inside us that only when discovered we really come alive. It’s a beautiful thing. He demands nothing from us. But oh how he longs to be pursued! Whenever there is doubt or confusion just hear his reply, “I am king. I will lead you”.
“Arise my darling, my beautiful one, and come with me.” Song2:10
Up next: Philippines 11/1 (Thailand is in severe flooding so there is a possible hold on that country)
