We are only halfway through our second week in Mexico and in training, and the Holy Spirit has worked so deeply in my heart already. I am open to, accepting of, and challenged by all that has been presented to me. Andrew Shearman and Gary Black have been teaching and praying with us in the last couple days. We have taken in so much, but it is so much more than information – it’s impartation! Impartation of truth, and of healing.
We are claiming our inheritance in Christ, not because of what we know but through intimacy with our Father. We are one in Christ and have been promised the same inheritance! Psalm 2:7,8 says, speaking of Christ – “You are my Son, today I have begotten you. Ask of me, and I will make the nations your
inheritance and the ends of the earth your possession .” If indeed I do believe the Word of God that says I am a ‘joint heir’ to this inheritance with Christ, then there is no doubt that the nations and the ends of the earth are mine! That is amazing – I will fight for my promised land, whatever that may look like. My inheritance may be my peers in America, orphans in India, AIDS victims in Swaziland, or prostitutes in Thailand, or anywhere else. As I am seeking the Lord, he is more clearly showing me my calling and as I am obedient to Him one step at a time, He will lead me to where I belong. I will fight for it, I will risk all that He asks of me for it, and I will not give up or die in the Wilderness as the Israelites did, before reaching my Promised Land of inheritance!
Team ZEO (my small team) is praying for clarity of roles and purpose within our team that we would be most effective in this journey together. We come weak and full of insecurities, trusting in our Almighty, Loving Father to lead us, for the Spirit’s power to be made perfect in our weakness. (2 Cor. 12:9)
I have had plenty of fears, and will face them again from time to time, more often than I’d like. But I am choosing to stand firm in faith and
face them, filled with the Holy Spirit – to conquer my fears in the name of Jesus. I choose to accept the Love that He has for me, believing the truth that ‘perfect love casts out all fear!’ (1 Jn.4:18)
I know that I have gifts and strengths that I have allowed to hibernate when God has called me out to use them. I have given into weakness, believing that I couldn’t find a proper outlet to release what God has given me. I have given up confidence in Christ and traded it for a shabby resemblance of a broken soldier. As the men were teaching about the gifts we have each been given and other Racers were having revelations of their own, I was frustrated that I wasn’t receiving some great revelation and life changing moment. I went to God and this is what He said to me.
“Alissa, you are waiting for some incredible new truth to shatter your world this week in order to change your life. I have already given it to you! Walk in truth! Waste your gifts no more. I will give you more when you walk in the truth you have. Stop doubting that you have what you need. Stop acting like a child when you are called to be a BOLD woman of God. Rise up and go forth. Don’t be afraid to be foolish in the eyes of men for My sake, for in Me is your reward.”
Gary confirmed this word in me the next day. I am pleased to say, with a smile and some nervousness, that I will walk in the gifts of teaching, healing and the prophetic that my incredible Loving Father has bestowed on me. I face the enemy, stand strong and refuse be debilitated by fear any more. 1 Jn 4:4 “Little children, you are from God and have overcome them (spirits of the enemy) for He who is in you is greater than He who is in the world.”
I am so excited to be filling with Passion again. I feel like I have walked without it for too long. I AM passionate – why I have hidden that is beyond me! It’s so fun to see things develop even now. I DO like to teach, when there is something in me to share in that way, it wells up so deep and strong that it bursts! I am not afraid of teaching, preaching even – though that doesn’t go to say I am not nervous, but rather, I recognize that I could never teach if the Holy Spirit didn’t give me the words or the strength. I am simply His humble vessel, honored to be used by Him. Oh, Praise Jesus! I could go on and on, but this would get too long, and I will have the whole coming year to share this journey with you – to tell you all how we are praying and seeing people healed, demons cast out, lives changing and the Kingdom of God expanding!
Mark 16:17, 18 – “And these signs will accompany those who believe; in My name they will cast out demons; they will speak in new tongues; they will pick up serpents with their hands; and if they drink any deadly poison, it will not hurt them; they will lay their hands on the sick and they will recover.”
