Resurrection Day

Journal excerpt from Sunday, April 24th, 2011:

“Saturday was just a beautiful day.  I was able to run in the morning, followed by guitar practice and then at 1:30pm I went to participate in the last 11 hours of the 30 Hours of Prayer at Penang House of Prayer.  You made time fly, Lord, and truly in that sustained posture of worship I could see that I am literally made to worship you.  Lord, I am learning slowly but surely you are real and my walk of faith is tangible and will yield results.  It’s like…you call me out several times a day at specific moments to fully trust and believe you are real.  Even when my brain and emotions and logic are telling me this isn’t truth and I have no proof or anything convincing to tell others about You – I have to choose in that very moment to believe.  Just like a strong wind I can’t see – I know it’s real.  Look at the way it blows my hair and disrupts the papers in my journal. Look at the way when You move my soul stirs and I cry out of nowhere or like last night, I laugh for 90 minutes straight.  Am I crazy?!  Bipolar?!  …Or have I tapped into the most legitimate thing in my life.  Today, Easter morning, I again am choosing to believe you are real and alive (thank you for the empty tomb, by the way) and I will actively pursue a relationship with You, and maybe in return, my life will bear incredible fruits that my peers might see and believe.  And through that, my faith is made sound as well.  It’s a beautiful cycle of serving others and seeing you manifest and knowing I’m on the right track. 

Last night had such powerful moments for me.  I remember you distinctly shouting “I CHOSE YOU” loud and clear and then me falling and spiraling into what this declaration could possibly mean…and all the responsibility and honor it comes with.  For instance, I will no longer die, but have eternal life.  I am a Queen with a royal inheritance because I am a daughter of God.  I could go on and on, but mostly, Lord, I want to thank you for the daily (even hourly) pursuit of my heart. 

My declarations, to you God:  I HAVE A COVENANT WITH YOU, AND BY THE BLOOD OF JESUS I RELEASE MY DIVINE PROTECTION AND DIVINE PROVISION.  I DECLARE MY ANGELS ARE CARRYING OUT THE WORD OF GOD ON MY BEHALF TODAY.      Thank you Jesus for that empty tomb.  It is the fundamental basis of Christianity, and without it, there would be no religion – and there would be no World Race!!  Thank you Jesus.”