I AM…
I am FREE
I have had this durden for a long time, though I am not sure how long. It seems to have just built up higher year after year, month after month. This burden is the burden of others not knowing Christ. This may seem strange to you, but it was if I was trying to carry the weight and pain of others who don't KNOW how incredible my God actually is. It was like this huge back pack that I was carrying around that weighed so much it was physically hard to breath some days. I had this image of me with this giant backpack on and God holding it in His hands while I was suspended in the air by the straps. I heard God saying "Alison, you have to let go. You do not hold their salvation in your hands…I DO." At training camp, the Lord blessed me with an amazing squade mate that shared this same burden. We were able to pray over our families, friends, and churches in a sense of handing them over to the Lord. I am now FREE IN CHRIST! FREE to love, FREE to proclaim Christ, FREE to live for Him!
I am FILLED WITH THE HOLY SPIRIT
I have been begging for the Lord to show me and make it undeniable that I am filled with His Spirit. During one of our worship sessions, I clenched my eyes shut once again begged God to show me I am filled (apparently my faith is similar to Thomas, see John 20:25). I began to cry and my entire body got really stiff. I started to relax a little, then my whole body was clenched tight again. Soon my hands relaxed and started to shake and move like crazy. They were moving faster than I could possibly move them. Then both my arms joined, then my feet, then my legs. This rapid movement continued for almost 45 minutes of worship!! This was not something I could control. After worship and througout the day if I wasn't holding onto something, my hands would begin that same rapid movement. It was not me making the movement, it was the Holy Spirit! The SPIRIT MOVES FREE inside of me!
I am A TEAM LEADER
I am beyond blessed to be a team leader! There are 55 of us on Squad F which will be traveling together from country to country. Within our squad we have 8 teams which will disperse around each country into ministry. I have an amazing team of 7 people (I will soon make a blog for that also). Our team is called Tzadik 58. I am not exactly sure yet what all being a team leader entails, I just pray the Lord leads and loves straight through me!
I am READY TO FIGHT
On one of the last nights of training camp, the girls decided to get together for some girl time. It started out with girls sharing what the Lord has placed on our hearts and some legit, but surface level struggles. The Lord had way more planned than that. He moved one of the girls to be vulnerable and share a struggle she has never told anyone before. The next our played out like dominos! Girls we coming out and sharing the darkest parts of thier lives they previously claimed to take to their graves. But we are filled with the Spirit and the Spirit is moving! Chains were broken and sooo many women on our team were set free. We all got close and began to pray which broke out in a chant "We have FREEDOM, now we FIGHT!" I have never felt closer to a group of girls in my life and I've known these girls a week!
I AM BEYOND BLESSED! I have no idea what this year holds for me, for my incredible team, for my amazing F Squad family, or for this world. What I do know though is the Lord has prepared us, He has freed us, and now He will lead us because it is time to stand free, love, rejoice, and
FIGHT FOR HIS KINGDOM
