Sometimes we're sitting around having solid conversation and then it turns into something alone the lines of this…
“Ugh, I know God's been calling me to fast meat for awhile now. Indefinitely.” -Christina
“Yeah, I've decided I'm doing no meat next month.”-Jon
“Rachel, I've been meaning to tell you I want to go vegan for a week!”-Sunny
“I actually love spinach, feta, hummus and carrot sandwiches.” -Julian
“You guys know I'd love to support you.” -Rachel
I mumbled something about sugar.
“Yeah, I've been wanting to bring that up to you.”
More peer pressure from my team. Without them even putting peer pressure on me. It just seems like time and time again my team makes decisions that correlate exactly with what God's been whispering in my ear.
You see this month (and last) we've been surrounded by food choices. We've been within walking distances of grocery stores, fast food restaurants, ice-cream, cute little coffee shops filled with sugary mochas and tasty muffins, and local markets. When our teams combine the food budget and plan and cook together it's easier. When we distribute the food money and every man's for themselves (and I spend beyond the WR budget amount with personal money) it gets a little more tricky.
Bottom line, when I'm left to my own devices [I'm addicted it's a crisis…] I don't make wise choices. So I had to ask myself the lifelong battle of why and what am I actually going to do about it. I asked God if I could just give up meat for a week. He said “why are you still holding onto your comfort zone?” I asked if I need to give up all sugar. He said “you need to learn to control and monitor your sugar intake if this is going to last for more than a week.” I said, “can't I at least have cheese and milk because it's travel day and debrief and frankly I don't like dried fruit!?” and He said, “Alison, what's this year for? Full abandonment? Trusting Me? Trusting the people I've put around you or just getting by?”
So, tomorrow (Monday) I'm going vegan. For at least a week. Yeah, it might not sound like a long time but for someone who rarely eats anything vegan and hasn't put any effort into really understanding my vegan teammate's lifestyle it's not going to be a walk in the park.
And, I'm asking every day for God to show me what my diet and decision making should look like.
Have I mentioned I love sugar?
