I want to share a journal entry with you from February 20th, 2011:
“My heart hurts this morning, really bad. I just want this to go away. I don’t know who I am any more and I don’t know what I’m doing. I feel like a leaf blowing in the wind”
“I’m a lost leaf blowing in the wind,
I’m so so lost.
I’ve lost my voice,
Where is my voice!?
I want my own choice,
Speak out! I’m speaking out!
You created me this way,
I will praise you on this day.
I see you in creation,
You are all around me.
Now I can see!
I’m lost,
I’m completely lost in your wind.
You are blowing through my hair,
And now I’m without a fear.
I’m drowning in your ocean,
I’m sinking in your grace.
I can see your face,
And now I’m forever changed.
I’m never looking back,
I’ll never be the same.”
I want to be vulnerable with you. I want you to know that the World Race has been such a process, a beautiful mess. I lost my identity. I lost my voice. I gained a new identity, in Him. My voice collided with his voice and now my voice is the voice of truth. It hasn’t all been rainbows and butterflies. There were times/are times to come when I was/will be a complete mess but I had wonderful brothers and sisters to lift me up. Most importantly, I had the Lord carry me when I wasn’t strong enough to walk.
If you need to be carried then let him carry you and if you need prayer or just someone to talk to then I am here. My email is: [email protected]. I want to share life with you.
…And remember…as a good friend once told me…
“There are better days to come.”
