Hi beautifuls! This is the final part of training camp blogs that I’ll post, and I hope it gives you more insight into what the Lord was showing me.
The atmosphere of worship was one I had never had the pleasure of being apart of. It was the first time I remember thinking to myself to get a seat in the aisle because I needed space. Space to allow the Lord to lead me where he wanted me to go in worship. Hands up, out, or my knees dropping to the ground in prayer. Shouting as loud as I could, being completely off key, but completely honest with the expression of my soul. That is something that I can say I hadn’t ever done.
One of the craziest things I experienced at camp was the habitation of the Holy Spirit. I know in my walk with Christ I’ve been able to feel His presence but until camp I had never truly experienced it. In one of our sessions, we learned that a number of times we wanna treat the Holy spirit as though He has visitation rights instead of habitation rights. That was totally me. I was like yeah come on in and have visit, but you can’t stay. He was like the guest I tried to shoo out but He just kept trying to stay. Once I allowed Him make His home there, I felt a steadiness that I never had. It was in that moment I learned a valuable lesson.
I’ve always been the kind of person who commits to the words of a worship song. If it’s new and I don’t know the words, I try to pick it up as I go and sometimes I’ll belt it at the wrong time. I’m not sure if the person next to me heard my mistake but oh well, I’m still going to shout praises to the King. All of a sudden I have a teammate laid in my spirit. At the time I didn’t realize that it was a prompt from the Holy spirit to go and pray for her. I wait a couple of minutes and keep singing, but there it is again. Keep in mind I hadn’t ever experienced something like that so I honestly had no idea what it was. It happens a third time even stronger and I still stood in my place, and decided I would talk to God about it later. I open my eyes and notice that someone else approached the person I had on my mind and prayed for them. Believe it or not, I STILL didn’t get it. It wasn’t until we had the session about the Holy Spirit that I finally was got it.
The Lord wants to use us to bring his Kingdom to earth, but it’s our choice if we want to be apart of it. After that night I learned what it meant when people said, “Your will be done.” No matter what I did, His will was going to be done. I got a slap in the face of it’s not the saying, ” if not you then who?” it’s “if not you, then SOMEONE ELSE.” What God wants is what’s going to happen. I’m so thankful that the Spirit will use someone else if the original recipient doesn’t respond. I now know I can actively chose to be apart of what the Lord wants, or watch as it passes by. I learned how important it is to be aware of what the Lord is doing and that I can make a choice to participate.
Love you all,
Alisha Allen
