Silence.
‘Ok Jesus, I’m not sure why but I definitely feel like you’ve been more quiet than usual.’
That was my first thought after my prayer time this morning. I continued to ask questions and still I got nothing. Whenever I get into a rut, I try to come at things from a different angle. I try to ask new questions or take a fresh approach to an old situation. But this morning was different. I didn’t get any images like I normally do. I didn’t get any words like I normally do. And I didn’t hear him like I normally do.
‘What the heck Jesus?’
Right when I got into a groove He went and changed it up. The more I asked questions, the more He told me ‘Just wait.’ Then of course I’m like ok I get that Lord, but what about this? Can you answer this question at least? Then he says again, ‘Just wait. Not yet,’ with a huge grin on His face. UGH. After asking a couple more questions, (as if I would talk him out of his silence) I finally said,
‘Ok Lord I’ll wait then.’
I just pictured myself plopping on the floor next to him and sighing. I wasn’t necessarily happy about his response, but I wasn’t angry either. I was mostly just curious as to why. In this silence, I’m not sure exactly what He’s trying to show me, but one thing I learned about myself, was how important it is for people to enjoy silence with me. I love being in the presence of the ones I love, even if we’re not speaking. It’s something that matters to me. I truly delight in their presence as a human being. I think Jesus was reminding me that about Himself also. I don’t always have to be receiving an answer to my questions. I can just be. Even when He’s silent, I can enjoy being in His presence.
Lots of loves,
Alisha
