(Part II-“And You Said Prophesy Doesn’t Happen”)
“There is a little girl in Romania who needs your healing.”
“”There is a little girl…Romania…healing.”
“girl…Romania…healing.”
The one thing that I did NOT want to happen, did; I was looking for the little girl, I kept hearing the prophesy every time I walked out the door and I wondered when it was going to happen. For the first couple of weeks, we visited schools and orphanages in which I had my eyes wide open-I was waiting for the opportunity to heal a child. However, NOTHING was happening and I started to doubt if a healing would ever take place. While I was on the “look-out” for the “little girl,” I found myself in a desert-not with God, but with myself. Things from my past started to resurface and the Lord started a healing process within me. I did not go to Romania expecting the month to be about me and my crap, but to bring new life to a little girl in need.
Where was this child at???
So, as I was dealing with all of my sudden issues, I started to take notice of all the little things that began to wrap around my heart. Within a couple of weeks of being in Romania, I realized that I was seeing Ladybugs EVERYWHERE! As a child, my mother called me Ladybug, which made me think that something may be wrong with my mom. I started warring for my mother in prayer while I was being broken into pieces by the things of my past. One day I decided it would be best to stay home from ministry to get my fill of Jesus-ALONE! I love my team members, but every now and then I just need a moment for ME. For almost three hours, I worshipped our great Creator and started asking some BIG questions. I finally got to the one that I REALLY wanted to ask…
Like the whisper on the mountain top, I heard the Spirit say, “You, Alisa. You are the little girl who needs healing.” I was completely speechless. Tears began to spill from my eyes and I just sat with worship music drowning out the background. A few moment s went by when I finally asked, “Okay God, if I am the little girl then I am going to need confirmation.” That was it. I got up from my worship time and started to do chores around our little humble abode-knowing, in my spirit, that I didn’t REALLY need confirmation; I knew it was true.
That night at feedback, I finally opened up to my team about where I was spiritually and emotionally. I told them what the Lord had said to me earlier and the room seemed to go completely still. After a few seconds of silence, Austin admitted that that he had a feeling that I was the little girl all along. Sarah followed saying almost the exact same thing and then Kate spoke. She confessed that two weeks earlier, her and Annie Rose were praying for me and felt like God told them that I was the little girl; they did not want to tell me, because they knew God would reveal HIMSELF to me at HIS perfect time.
So there it was-God’s confirmation.
My prayer had been answered. The Little girl that I had been praying for ALL year was none other than…me. It began to make sense why things from my childhood were being brought up-little Alisa needed some CRAZY healing. As for the symbolism of the Ladybugs, well these little creatures have always reminded me of a time where I was completely happy, pure, innocent, and loved. So every time I saw a Ladybug in Romania, it was God saying that HE loved me and that HE sees me. This also reminded me of the book, “The Shack” in which Ladybugs represented the author’s lost childhood…I knew this all too well.
So that is it. That is the story of how the prophesy was revealed. I was the little girl all along…the Lord had me pray for myself for exactly one year (Romania was during the month of October, the same month as training camp the year before). I came to the conclusion that the Lord LOVES me deeply-so much that HE gave me the power to heal the little child inside that has been hiding for so many years.
I would be lying if I said I was completely healed, because I am not; but the prophesy did not actually say that healing would TAKE place in Romania-it simply said, “There is a little girl in Romania who NEEDS your healing.” Some of the issues that I am dealing with are hard, but our God is good and will hold me in HIS arms as I go through this painful process. HE will be there through it all.
I know the question you may be asking is, “Are you disappointed that you were not able to physically heal a little girl, though?”
My answer to this…
I am IMPORTANT in the eyes of God. He LOVES and DELIGHTS in me so much that HE LONGS to see healing take place in me so that I may become closer to HIM. So, no…I am not disappointed, but completely blessed and humbled beyond comprehension.
I am WORTHY and of high importance to our majestic Creator-HOW AMAZING IS THAT?
Selah.
