There it is. I am POWER for the power of Christ resonates inside of me. That scares the hell out of me though; I am NOT going to lie.
HAVE NO FEAR. HAVE NO FEAR. HAVE NO FEAR. For fear is NOT of God!
So, as I battled these new-found revelations, I discovered that my identity was being covered-up beneath the rubble.
WHO AM I? And why the heck am I asking this question in month 9 of the Race? You would think I would have been asking this question at the start of my 11 month journey-but no, God had other plans.
Right now I am at an event called The Awakening which is a conference put on by the WR for alumni and every squad on the field to come together and worship our creator. I was SUPER excited and expected that my spirit would be “Awakened” (pardon the pun); however, the first two days I felt nothing. I tried, believe me, I did!
It was not until worship on the second night that I realized what was holding me back. My former squad leader, Tara, came up to me and just held me in her arms for a few seconds and then Tara opened up and began to speak life into me. She felt the fear in me and brought it into the light.
MEN. REJECTION. ABANDONEMENT. MYSELF.
There was more, but those were the ones that stood out the most. I went into shut-down mode for the rest of the night. When I woke up the next morning, though, epiphany hit me…
To be continued…
