Since I was a kid, I have always struggled with self
confidence. I have never felt quite talented enough or quite pretty enough. I
never made the team in sports, never got the solos in chorus, never achieved
the best grades in school. I would rarely approach people to start a
conversation because I often felt like they wouldn’t want to hear what I had to
say. I was easily intimidated by everyone: family, friends, coworkers, and
strangers. In a sense, I was living in fear because I always felt inadequate.
I have always cared about what people thought. Other
people’s opinions and sometimes even their morals have often shaped my
decisions. I hate the thought of disappointing people, letting them down, or
giving them a reason to see me in a negative light.
Well, my perspective is changing. Thank goodness. God is
revealing my value, and He is revealing how much I need to grow into the person
that He created me to be.
The beginning of this journey was marked about two weeks
ago. I decided to shave my head. As my hair grows back, a new, confident me is
going to grow along with it. From here, my decisions will really be my own. I
will never be afraid of people again.
God created me as a person with a beautiful soul, with
valuable things to contribute to the world. I have decided that it is time to
see myself through His eyes.
