This video is a glimpse of the week of training camp I went through with the wonderful T squad. During training camp I slept in strange places, ate foreign food, met incredible people and encountered God in new ways.
One specific experience I had that I was not expecting occurred one night during a worship and prayer session. I was singing a song of praise to God and I kept getting distracted with images of my family members racing through my mind. I tried to just focus on God but it seemed the harder I tried to praise God, the clearer the images of my brothers and parents would get. I finally was tired of fighting with myself and I just knelt down with my hands held together. Almost as soon as my knees hit the ground I heard the Lord say stop desiring your families approval more than you desire me. Instantaneously an imagine came to my mind with me facing an altar with my family on top, and God at the bottom. I had subconsciously been living for my family rather than for God. I started to cry and began to pray through the tears rolling down my cheeks for God to accept my return to him and forgive me for placing others before him. God was so faithful and flooded me with overwhelming freedom that I had never experienced before. A weight of having to perform for others was lifted and my heart was full with thanksgiving and joy.
I absolutely love my family (love you mom!) but they are human just like me, I will never be able to meet all their needs and they will never be able to meet all my needs. However, there is a God who is perfect and if I allow him, if we allow him, he can meet all our needs and bless us beyond any of our expectations.
Enjoy the video 🙂
