When I was in Guatemala the summer of 2016 I felt the Lord telling me it was time to make some changes, to change churches specifically. I was scared, worried, sad, all the things that come with unexpected and unwanted changes. But after much procrastination and talking with people in the church i grew up in, i made the move to Grace Church and y’all…it was a HUGE blessing. Moving from a church with maybe 300 people in the congregation to a church with 3,000 people in the congregation, it has been super hard to get connected. But i did it, i found a place to serve, a place to connect with people who love children and missions like myself, but to also try out other parts of a church along the way and learn how to get out of my comfort zone for relationships sake. Fast forward to now, i’ve been at this church for over a year and i’ve learned what it means to completely trust Jesus with my fears and anxieties.
Now, how does this apply to this blog? Simple, I didn’t want to go on The Race for a long time because I was scared. Sometimes I still don’t want to. I can’t even count how many times i told God that He lost his marbles because I was NOT going. And I’m still a little scared, somedays I wonder if i can do it. Can I raise 15,000 dollars? Can I be away from all of my comforts for 9 months? Can I, a girl sometimes full of doubt and anxiety, really make a difference in peoples lives? No, i absolutely cannot do these things…on my own. I’ve noticed a pattern in myself over the last couple years, when i start getting fearful and doubting God plan, its because i’ve forgotten to be still and listen. To remember that He is in control of everything instead of trying to handle it all myself. God isn’t a god of doubt and fear, He is our Father and He won’t lead us down a path of failure or confusion. (Psalm 23:2-3) He wants us to succeed, to be fruitful and have abundant life, but sometimes we have to say “No.” to the fears that are there and leap out in faith, for self growth and Kingdom growth.
