*This is T-Squad! So pumped to travel the world with this group for 9 months, so blessed that God made us brothers & sisters!
**I’ve found it more difficult than what I thought it would be to process those 10 days in Georgia so I’m sorry for the delayed blog.
During training camp I met my squad (48 Jesus loving young adults who I’ll be traveling the world with for 9 months), got put into my team (7 sweet girls who I’ll live & do ministry with). I worshiped with these groups, cried with some of them, laughed and talked about hard things & tender scares with them, we ate strange food (including crickets), learned how to evangelize to just about anyone, sweated constantly, slept in tents, and sometimes hammocks when we were too tired to pitch our tent for the night.
I went into training camp so confused about who God told me I was, not because I didn’t understand Him necessarily, but because I didn’t believe Him. Why didn’t I believe him? God is the King, the One who made me and all of the universe, if I couldn’t trust Him then who could I trust? And if I can’t trust Him, how can I be fully willing to sacrifice everything for His kingdom work? I couldn’t & I wasn’t. These are things I didn’t realize until I was driving to GA on Friday July 10th, and I knew that God was giving me a heads up of what areas He was going to work on during those 10 days. Not going to lie, it scared me a little. God and I have been buds for a while now, and something I’ve learned over the years is that growth doesn’t happen without soreness. I was advised by one of the coaches to wake up every morning and ask God “Who am I today Abba?” So that’s what I did, and that one simple question brought an entire 10 days of healing & growth. These are some of the truths that God taught me at training camp the last couple weeks;
- God allows the people around me to see so much more of Him in me then what I see in myself.
- That I’m already validated in who He says I am but having uplifting people around who call out the good in you & the areas you need to grow in, is a very good & Godly thing.
- That sacrificing comfort is something that takes time to get better at.
- That I’m not good at being vulnerable but it’s something I have a desire to grow in.
- That Gods design for His Church is the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen. The love, the worship, the community, and the freedom to be ourselves and to be welcomed in the brokenness.
- “Salvation is free, but walking as a disciple will cost you everything.”
