Hey. it’s me, Ms. Worry mcgee. I know what you’re thinking you shouldn’t be worrying you should rely on God, but if I’m being honest it is so difficult sometimes! I’m like a stage five control freak. I like to be in control over my life and I like to know what going to happen next. Well recently God’s been showing me how little I do rely on him. See it’s so easy for me to tell other people “relax you know God’s in control” but it’s been so difficult recently to grasp that concept myself. A couple weeks ago in youth we talked about who we go to first when we have a problem, let me just tell y’all this. As we were reading the questions off to our middle school girls I was so convicted because I don’t run to God first so how could I tell them to. Of course I repented and asked God to help me to rely on and go to him first about my life and you know how everyone says don’t pray for it unless you are ready for the trials…. well I wasn’t ready AT ALL to say the least. It was almost as if he said “yeah I’ll help you” then threw everything at me at once. I was knee deep in stress and worry. I had to go to work one morning and on my way there I just had to surrendered and actually rely that he would work it all out. I prayed for patience (I know that’s another one you don’t pray for unless your ready) joy, peace and strength to make it through it because your girl was about ready to throw in the towel! Let me tell y’all, God came through AGAIN for me. He filled me with so much peace about my situation took all my worry away, gave me joy and even gave me some grace for not thinking he would do all that in the first place. We serve such a mighty God! Even in my stress, worry and doubting he never ceases to amaze me, guide me and teach me new things! Thank you Jesus for your never ending grace and understanding!
