Humans.
We are complex and incredible creatures.
We have 1 billion nerve cells in our bodies.
We learn new things about the way our brains function every single day.
But we are more than the sum of our parts. We have complex emotions.
We worry.
We try to control every aspect of our lives.
Going on this trip is a huge step for me.
I am giving a year of my life fully to God.
I am giving him full control over everything.
The bible tells us in Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.
I don’t know what this next year has in store for me.
And that scares me.
Normally when I take a trip I plan out all the place I want to go, the things I want to do, and the food I want to eat and experience.
But in this, I have to let go.
I have to leave my planner at home (literally and figuratively) and trust God to take care of everything.
Proverbs 3:5-6 says
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.
Trust. That word keeps coming up a lot.
We say that we trust God, but putting those words into action is the truly difficult part. Because to truly trust God, we have to let go of everything.
Letting go is scary. The fear of the unknown is my biggest crutch. And stumbling through the darkness, just letting go…
That is the thing I and all humans have to work on.
Psalm 56:3
When I am afraid, I put my trust in You.
