When it’s month two, all squad month, and your team gets assigned to be the evangelism team. When you’re also a bit (or a lot) terrified AND you feel totally inadequate for the job. Everything I’ve done with ministry the past three years is building a relationship with someone and introducing the Gospel through that relationship. Evangelism is totally the opposite.
I’m really a much better listener than talker. So, just walking up to people and introducing a topic as heavy as salvation is intimidating to me.
A little more information about my squad – we have this mentor named Teresa. She is basically a legend. She’s the best evangelist I’ve ever known. She will chase down someone on a bike, in a grocery store, sitting down, standing up, to ask them if they know the Lord. I know for a fact she talked to at least four people yesterday that gave their life to the Lord.
At debrief, I felt the Lord telling me I would be stretched this month through evangelism with Teresa. Then we got placed as the evangelism team. Out of seven teams. Teresa is with us the entire month.
Yesterday was day two of all afternoon evangelism. Honestly it takes a lot out of me, and I was feeling so tired. Today Teresa was talking about celebrating small victories, and I realized how hard our squad has been on ourselves. Most of us have never done any type of evangelism, and we’re taking it head on. I talked to a couple people on my squad and a pretty common theme was feeling like we could’ve done better. When in reality, walking around a city we’ve been in for three days asking total strangers if they understand the significance of the cross is a HUGE deal. I know there will be an immense amount of growth because of the dependence we will have to constantly place on the Lord. I’m excited and scared and intimidated and expectant.
I believe that this weakness of mine will be hard to strengthen, however the only way to grow is to wholly press into that discomfort and see what the Lord is going to do.
Thanks for staying up to date!!
Alexis <3
