Brokenness is still brokenness… Whether painted or buried.
It will resurface at some point in your life.. Whether months or years…
You can’t wish brokenness away.. You can’t think brokenness away.. And You can only suppress brokenness but for so long…
My brokenness resurfaced Month 1 of my World Race…
One moment I was simply telling my story and the next I was sitting in a puddle of tears.. The Holy Spirit highlighted a point in my story that I didn’t dare go into detail about at any other point in time, but that night He asked me to go in depth and so I went there in my mind..
Detail after detail.. A wound was being opened.
It had been patched over by bandages that kept me from feeling…
By the end of my story I was broken all over again.. During the time of the original hurt I wasn’t in a community that I could actually process or heal, so The Holy Spirit let me know that the time was now…
The time for true healing was now.. It was time to mourn and allow truth to wash over that place..
I woke up the next morning reliving all of the emotions following the tragedy. Every emotion I felt years ago was back in full force and for the first time the healing began…
It was time to admit the hurt, the anger, the guilt, and let it all out once and for all… It was time to uproot the seed that was planted in that moment.
I had no idea the hurt was still there.. Or the affect it had on me.. It wasn’t until I sat down and had a conversation with The Holy Spirit that everything started to come to light.
During my time with The Lord our conversation went something like this…..
1. Holy Spirit Is there something you want to bring to light?… What emotion am I feeling?
2. Is there a memory that The Holy Spirit brings up? Don’t discount the memory.. It can be the smallest thing.
3. In that moment what did you feel? What lie was planted? What changed from that moment forward?
4. Holy Spirit shower me with your truth.. Walk me through this.
I share this with you all because this moment was pivotal for me and I believe it will also be pivotal for many of you…. Many of the behaviors and emotions we feel today are rooted somewhere in the past..It may not even be from your generation.
Your process may look very different from mine, but I do know that if you ask The Holy Spirit to reveal YOU to you with a open sincere heart, He will do just that.
I did want to say a special thank you to my amazing team who have showered me with prayers and love… They are God sent sisters…
Love each and everyone of you to life!
“The Lord proclaims: Stop at the crossroads and look around; ask for the ancient paths. Where is the good way? Then walk in it and find a resting place for yourselves.” Jeremiah 6:16
“And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the death.” Revelation 12:11
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