There are so many things I am expecting..
-I expect to be greatly humbled
-I expect to get homesick
-I expect to get actually sick (for those of you who know me, allergy kid, lets face it I WILL get an illness at some point)
-I expect to grow extremely close with my teammates
-I expect to do many things out of my comfort zone
-I expect to have my heart broken for the many things I will see and experience
-I expect to have the time of my life & create unbelievable memories
-I expect my life and heart to be changed forever
-I expect to grow in an even deeper and more intimate relationship with Jesus
-I expect to have triumphs, challenges & discouragements in the 11 months on the field
-I expect to be unprepared and unequipped at some points, but know God will provide for what I lack in
But, the reality is..
I have no idea what to expect
I am a planner. I like to make lists, plan for the unexpected and full well know what I am getting myself into. And most of the time..Jesus surprises me and pulls me out from that control.
I never “planned” on moving to Colorado in 2011, I never “planned” on moving to the coast of NC and having my heart broken for lost high school girls, and I certainly never “planned” on living out of a backpack for 11 months to travel around the world as a missionary. However, that is my new reality.
Jesus has called on me, whether I am ready or not, to be a servant for Him and travel the world. I have no earthly idea what to expect, even with the amount of information & lists I am given. I only hope that I can prepare my heart the best I can and know He is in control.
I prayed so many times about the World Race. And as exciting as it sounded, raising over $16,00 to live on the bare minimum around the world didn’t sound like something that would be in my future..ever. But I think God has such a sense of humor sometimes. Just when I started building a life for myself, He has called on me to strip myself of things I hold near to me and what I find comfortable to embrace change and run after Him into things that I don’t know how to plan for.
It may sound crazy to most people, but God placed this long on my heart before I even knew it..amazing! I am trusting completely on Him to uproot my life, change my world, and take me on experiences to love on so many different people. I am in awe of what God is doing in my life and my heart is overtaken by joy.
So as much as I would like to plan & will plan, what God has in store for me it is all yet to be continued..
