It's no secret to those who know me even remotely well that i love to be in control. maybe it's because i'm the oldest of 5 kids. or maybe it's because one of my spiritual gifts is leadership. or because i have what most call a "strong personality." or my personal favorite — it's because God made me this way.
which is absolutely true. God created me the way that i am for a reason. But having a strong personality or being a "natural-born leader" is never an excuse to attempt to relinquish control from the one who has given me life.
the Lord is currently teaching me about control. particularly that i need to let go of it. this is not only in my relationship with the Lord — that's actually been an on going lesson for, well, a long time. Right now, he's teaching me to give up control in all aspects of my life. specificically, he's teaching me to give up control of all my worldly expectations. to understand that my life is always going to look different. it's not going to look like what i always expected it to. that i'm probably never going to do things "the right way". but if the right way doesn't include passionately, wholeheartedly seeking the Lord first, then i don't want anything to do with the right way. I'm learning to keep my eyes centered on the cross and that when i seek the kingdom with my whole heart, yes my life is going to look different. that's part of being called to ministry and dating someone who is also called into ministry (shout out P.King!). but the benefits of our lives being different and the world never understanding why we do what we do far outweigh the costs.
incredible things happen when you wholeheartedly seek the kingdom and let go of all your expectations.
"For am i now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am i trying to please man? If i were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ." Galatians 1:10
Support update!
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