The feels are in full swing as launch is coming to an end. In less than 24 hours my squad and I will be on our way to South Africa!
The day I left for launch was the first time I felt doubt and fear for this trip. I woke up for the last time in my bed and thought; I don’t have to leave this bed. Satan was continuing to work with those feelings all that morning. I was easily frustrated and yet eager to get on the way. I was full of confliction and worry. It wasn’t until this evening that I have finally put aside those feelings.
During worship tonight the Lord spoke to me and brought a picture to mind. It was a simple, strong, vast, and flowing waterfall. I was confused as to what the Lord could possibly be telling me through this image. So, I asked Him to clarify for me what a waterfall could possibly mean. It was shortly after I asked that He provided the clarification I so needed to hear. The worship leaders began the song ‘River of Love’ (I’ll be honest, I’m not sure that was the title). It was through the lyrics in this song that the Lord called me deeper into trusting His purpose for my life. “I find joy in the river, I find joy in the river, I find joy in the river of Your love. I want to drown in the good ole river of Your love.” The Lord is calling me deeper into the current and preparing my heart for the leap over the falls. He is calling me to trust Him completely to protect, provide, and enable me to be His hands and feet. I don’t need to be fearful of the fall because He already has me covered. He has given me grace, freedom, and love. And He wants me to be fully submerged in Him.
I don’t need to be afraid or doubtful anymore. The Lord has provided for this kingdom journey and has blessed me with so much support. I have been called! I have accepted His call. I now need to lay down my fears and dive head first into the water.
