3. I love that I have been able to know a different level of connection with it comes to communicating with Him incessantly.
Do you ever just feel drawn to someone? Like completely connected before it even makes sense? They just work for you for some reason, and it’s mutual.
I was drawn in. I was connected. It was mutual.
I could audibly hear Him talking to me day after day, slowly breaking me down in love, in Him. Letting me see just how much I still have to learn and how much more effort I need to put forth. But in the midst of all of the struggle, all of the tears and defeat, I felt victorious. I knew in those moments that He wasn’t done yet, that He’s not giving up on me anytime soon, not now, not ever.
Not only is He going to rebuild me, but He is going to do so in His perfect and divine timing. In the midst of His rebuilding He’s explained how He’s going to grow so many new parts of the me that are to come.
How to give grace until I think I’ve run out and then give it more.
How to truly love on people from the sincerity of my innermost soul not just act like it.
How to patient in all that I do ultimately understanding that it has nothing to do with me.
How to long for community among His people, both foreign and known to me.
How to become not just an individual in Him, but a woman in Him.
I can’t think of a time in my life that God has spoken so clear to me, in fact, He was so real I could almost smell Him. I also can’t think of a time that I truly hit my knees in surrender before then.
So many things to come, so much anticipation. The very privilege of having God mold me with His own two hands into exactly who He wants to see before Him is both humbling and fulfilling.
I have never known this kind of clarity in what He wants from me, but I also never asked. This song played on repeat in my head from that point on…Matt Maher-Hold Us Together
