1) God is the provider, I am not.
“I need a job… I need 10 jobs!!” This was my first response when I saw how much it would cost me to go on the World Race! $16,242 and then some, to buy the supplies to live for the year. It has been a challenge for me to wrap my mind around this amount of money, especially since I haven’t worked in a year due to the fact that I have been a part of a full time ministry internship that didn’t allow time for work. So right away I applied for a full time job and tried going back to the job I had before this year… and none of them worked out. Confused, I thought to myself, God would want me to work so I could raise the money to go on this missions trip. Right? But the more I prayed about finances, the more God spoke to me. This is bigger than you Alayna, and it has to be. God is teaching me that He is the provider, He wants to take care of all my needs and it is by His power that this money will come in, not mine. So I can give HIM the glory!
2) God will bring the right people to support, I will not.
I went a whole year traveling around different states doing ministry, and during that time I formed some pretty awesome relationships with people from all over. I had it in my mind that I would gather all the contacts I had received and would send them a support letter so I could share with them my new adventure and mission! It was so perfect and I thought, WOW God really blessed me here. But a week before my internship ended my phone was stollen. I didn’t have any information backed up, and I lost it during a ministry at one of the rougher parts in town. So it was gone, all my contacts, my perfect plan was ruined. But again, God taught me that it is not my connections to people that will bring in support. It is the Holy Spirit who will lead people to me, that feel called to support me. This is out of my control, but God is in control and He is proving that every day!
3) Total reliance on God, not in myself.
I feel like God is stripping away all the things that I think I need to help me on this journey, because truthfully that is all I have ever done and it has never worked out the way I thought it should. I love what God is teaching me in this season! As hard as it is, I wouldn’t trade it for anything else!
Romans 8:28 “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to HIS purpose.”
