As I have been preparing to go on the Race and as the year seems to be flying by so fast, I realize I have not really thought about expectations, worries, fears, etc. that I may have for this trip…but I’m not really sure I have any. I mean…I expect to see God move in a mighty way, even if it is only in the smallest form. I expect to have fellowship with my team, and to build relationships with the people in the countries we find ourselves in. I expect the enemy to attack fiercely only because he sees the threat the October team will be to his campaign…I expect there to be days that are harder than others…I expect to come out on the other side of all of this with new perspectives and a deeper relationship with my God and the family I will be with.
As for worries…I think I merely worry that I will not do enough…but then I remember that I can only do so much…there is much work to be done and there are many more who will follow to add to the process…and in that I find my worries disapate…
For fears I find that if I were to be honest I would tell you that I do not fear wildlife things such as that…No, on the outside I play it tough and thanks to my brothers there is little in the rehlm of adveture that I fear. My fears lie within… With myself. I fear not opening up enough or walking in my true gifting. At times I let the old self get the better of me and become painfully shy…plus there is much from the past that I fear the enemy will use against me in a terrible way…but how I have no clue…. I fear that I will not be enough…that is a lie I buy into far too often. Yet as I have been praying over this trip and dealing with the past, God continues to give me peace and bring others along side me to speak truth into my life. I find joy in knowing that I will be surrounded by men and women on this trip, who, as we grow from a team to a family, will speak truth into my life as well.
I get really excited about all of this…knowing that as I continue to walk in Freedom I worry about less, fear less, and expect nothing except that my God will move…I just have to keep moving with Him, no matter where it takes me or who it takes me to…
