Ok… So, I’m just going to be very honest. Today is a day for change!!
I actually got up and went to the gym today…. finally! While I was running I just began to pray and worship. I prayed and I ran. And I will tell you that I have never “felt” a prayer answered so instantly…. So I continued to pray and worship and run. During this run I have decided – I”M OVER IT!!!! I’m just over ALL of it!!! I’m done! I can’t do this anymore!
Don’t panic – I’m not giving up the world race…. I’m giving up my “self”… I’m giving up Satan!
I am over it! I’m done! I am done listening and believing Satan’s lies! You know what…. I am not too old. I am not ugly. I am not getting fat. I am not even that out of shape. I am not stupid. I am not annoying. I am not failing. I am not unloved. I am WAY OVER all this nastiness of worry, stress, discouragement, worthlessness, anxiety, un-motivation, disbelief, weariness. I am sick of all the times I can’t, how, and if have entered my mind! You know what…. Of course I can’t – but HE CAN. HOW? Who cares how – HE’S GOT THIS!!! And as for all the “ifs”…. well, IF_______, then – JESUS!!!
And as for the strained tendon and weird back pain and all the other crap that seems to be falling apart on me…. Nope – not having it! I don’t have time to deal with all that…. God’s got it all under control – I can’t deal with it – so He can just have it!
I am so done with this focus of self. Of course I’m not accomplishing anything… I CAN”T DO IT!!! But when I focus on on HIM – it get’s done… because HE CAN DO IT!!! He that is in me IS greater than he that is in the world. I’m so ready to hand it all over… I’m tired of being tired. I’m done with exhaustion.
And as I ran and prayed I could “feel” peace seep in, I “felt” stronger. I caught myself actually smiling during my run. And He confirmed it when I looked down at my time and the miles ran…. “See,” He said, “When you focus on me – you can accomplish anything… I am always with you.” 10 minute miles! Yes, “we” CAN run 10 minute miles!
So, watch out Satan, ’cause IT’S ON!…. Aimee Holladay has very on purpose, and very specifically, taken back her authority in Him, and – she is starting to realize her potential! – So, TAKE THAT!!!!
So I run straight to the goal with purpose in every step. I am not like a boxer who misses his punches. 1 Corinthians 9:26 (NLT)
