Its a new horizon
a brand new day
things are truly changing
I’m in love with God more today
than even yesterday
He proves himself
over and over again
to be faithful, a lover, and a friend
He leads with patience and is always kind
to teach and protect
and be there right on time
In a new city
with the promise
that this was my “new beginning”
leaving family and friends
on an adventure
my heart was ready
I was willing
to step into the unknown
follow God and trust his plan
it has been hard
but i would do it all over again.
As you step into a new place
there are many lessons you learn along the way
that you can only rely on Jesus
and it’s okay to not know everything
that fear will come
when you don’t know where to go
that losing people is hard
and grieving has to happen
but you have to go through the process
and expect the unexpected.
God told me early on
to let my walls down
and not accept defeat
I was accepting rejection
before it happened
because of fear of what could be
right around the corner
if i let myself be
100% me
to love freely again
felt vulnerable and weak
“I can’t risk it,
loving deeply
I can’t go there in my mind”
the fear creeps in to tell me
that it will just be a waste of time
they won’t love you
they will reject you
You won’t ever be enough
they will walk away
you will feel failure
you know that your not worthy of being loved
I knew those lies
heard them before
I knew it was just an evil trick
to stop me from loving people
the way that Jesus always did (and still does)
So I kept my heart open
but asked God to protect it with his life
before the year was over
things shifted
hope was in sight
a guy wanted to pursue me
and he did everything right
a conversation day one
for the first time in my life
I felt worthy, honored and respected
left no room for confusion or second guessing
and though the story doesn’t end
the way that you might think
I am thankful for that person
for simply being brave
It gave me hope for my desire
redeemed my broken past with men
prepared me for what’s to come
as the new year just begins
So here is to 2019
and the abundance that Jesus brings!
I can see a new horizon
I see glory
I see change.
Thank you again to all of you who have supported my world race journey and have been there in the midst of the transition to TN with encouragement, love, and prayer. Your kindness and love for me have been such a gift. I am thankful for each of you and honored to be a part of God’s kingdom family.
Let’s walk into 2019 expecting BIG things from our wonderful Father!
Love you, A.D.
