I have been trying to prepare myself in so many ways before the World Race:
I have to be out of my apartment by the end of August (so in about four days).
I have to move my stuff to my friend’s garage (and I’m so thankful that she is allowing me to leave my stuff there for a year).
I have been trying to fundraise (and praise the Lord is has been going really, really well).
I have been trying to make sure that I’m tying up all of my loose ends before I leave (power of attourney, bank accounts, suspend cell phone, make sure my medical concerns are taken care of, do I have everything I need for the trip?).
I have been working out regularly since getting back from training camp and I am trying not to get obsessive about it.
My weekends are jam-packed with trying to see everyone before I leave.
Plus, I’m working full-time (at least for the next three weeks).
I feel like planning-wise, I’m doing alright. However, in the midst of this I feel like I am trying to fit in time for God. I am reading blogs of my teammates and blogs from previous World Racers, and I feel like “Why isn’t the Lord speaking to me right now? I must not be doing something right because I’m not hearing His voice.” I have been hesitant to write a blog because I don’t feel like I have anything profound to say. I want this to be a catalog of my spiritual journey, and spiritually I feel like I am at a standstill. Which is so funny, because that’s not the truth. I have been using my commutes to spend time in prayer and I have felt the presence of the Holy Spirit so much in those prayer times that I am regularly moved to tears. I have so many demands on myself and I feel like I can’t bask in the glory of the Lord by trying to force it to happen. I don’t even know what I should be praying in regards to this right now. I don’t have any “nuggets of wisdom” to share at the moment. I guess my prayer is that the Lord will speak to me… I’ll let you know what happens.
