You know I have been going through a lot of my days here just waiting for the next opportunity to happen. You know all the things I am looking forward to when I get out of here. Like the roadtrip with my nephew, and the world race, and my mission trip to Thailand. All these things are going to be great when there time comes but right at this moment God has called me to this place for a season and a reason. I may not know what it is but I do know that I need Him to lead and guide me every step of the way. I need to see the passion and the heart that He has for this place right now.
I am listening to a song right now called Burn us up by Shane and Shane, and the song talks about being burned up by the desire of God and even if He does not burn us up we will still burn for Him. It talks about throwing us in the fire. I want to be thrown into the fire no matter where that fire may be.
I do not know what is going to happen on the world race, or on my road trip, or even tomorrow. I have made plans for what I intend to do tomorrow, but only God truly knows everything that will occur in my life from this moment right up to the last second I live on this earth. So all that I can do is live everyday to the fullest knowing that He is there and He knows and has my best interest at heart.
While I was writing this there have been several things that have happened including the devastating earthquake in Haiti. I have heard several things now. “They deserved the wrath of God to fall upon them, and God still thinks of them as His children and He mourns for them”. I will follow what the Bible tells me and that is this, God is love.
Thats it, plain and simple; three words. This is the fundamental of everything I am and who I am in Christ. God is love and because He is love I exist. Because He is love I can feel and show love. Because He is love I can feel pain and grief and feel what He feels. Because He is love there are those who even though the walls of their world have crashed down upon their frail and broken bodies, they had a hope and a life that went beyond what was on this earth. It breaks my heart just to see the images and hear the cries and see the passion of people who want to go and be there and help. To be the light of Christ to a nation that has no light or power or hope. To be that hope, and light. To show these people that even though they suffer and are in pain and feel lost and broken and alone. That God is there with them and He grieves with them when they find the worst about a missing loved one. He is there to rejoice with them when they find and hold their missing loved ones again.
My heart breaks for this nation. While at the same time my heart soars with hope. The hope that through this devastation and darkness the light of Christ will shine through and this nation will see that they have a deep spiritual need for a saviour. That they will turn their eyes towards Jesus and that every knee will bow and every tongue confess that Jesus is Lord. That there will be a hunger for the things of God and that there will be people in the right place at the right time with the right word. I know that what the devil meant for evil God can use for good. I thank God for who He is and pray that He will send His messengers forth to spread His word at this most important time.
