As the days narrow down- to graduation, to the race, to my unknown future- my mind has been drifting and wandering. My choice was different than most. I chose not to go to college right after high school. And it is a little weird when all of your friends are getting accepted into their favorite universities and you simply cannot relate. A lot of people I have talked to just don’t quite understand- why would I choose to live out of a backpack with 50 strangers for 9 months? How do I know that God has truly called me to do this?
A good friend of mine sent me a video link to watch a sermon that he said reminded him of me and my heart for mission work (I included the link at the bottom). I watched this during a time that I was trying to figure out what God wanted me to do next, not what the world was asking me to do. I had been praying about it for months, feeling my heart break over and over again for the children of Guatemala and hurting people all over the world. I knew I wanted to help people. I knew I was being called to ministry, (we all are, as Christians) but was unsure of where God wanted me. After I watched this sermon, I realized that my heart was breaking for a specific place for a reason: God wanted me there. We cannot ignore our callings- if we do so, we are ignoring the glory, growth, and purpose that our Father has in store for us. It may look intimidating, impossible even. How am I going to fundraise $16,000? I am so young- how could God possibly use me? Am I ready? Am I worthy to do this?
Something that we see over and over again in the Bible is:
God uses broken people. God is working for our good. We see a brush stroke, God see’s the masterpiece. He can use you where you are.
My goal is to remember these truths and walk humbly in them as I seek God and allow Him to use me in the months leading up to the Race.
I highly encourage any and every person to watch this: https://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=youtu.be&v=SG4RTTU7uL8
Much love,
Abigail
