I thought I would share a couple pages of my journal from the past month. Here are some thoughts and prayers I’ve had.
October 7th, 2018
I’m sitting in Swaziland right now. The sun is hitting my face. I’m drinking coffee. I’m listening to thirty missionary women worship Jesus. It’s Sunday morning. The birds are singing too. I can’t believe this is my life.
God, it’s moments like these I wish I could dwell in peace with you forever. Moments like these I am dancing with you. It feels like freedom. It feels like deep peace.
October 12th, 2018
Lord,
What a beautiful mystery you are. You go before us, you are behind us, you see and know all things. You know what the future holds, but you still choose to be here in the present. You know who will choose you and who will turn from you and you create us all anyway. You are glory and wrath. We fear you and we love you. You are so complex, so much bigger than I am. I can’t wrap mind around how big you are, I can’t even think thoughts that compare to yours, your wisdom and knowledge.
And the beauty of this is not that we should be confused by you, but it proves how great you truly are. A God that we can comprehend is not a God worth worshiping. I am a complex person myself, so I know that you know me, my heart and my needs, better than myself. I’m glad I’m in your hands; there are none greater for my life to be held by.
P.S.
I so badly wish I could show you all some pictures from this last month and a half on the field. I plan to upload some as soon as I can, but it still may be a while considering how slow and difficult internet connection is here. I’ve been able to post some on my Instagram account, if you’d like you can go check them out @abigail_berryline. Love you all and appreciate all the support you’ve given me! Thanking God for you people all the time.
Much love,
Abigail
