until I’ll be in Gainsville Georgia with 114 other nervously excited young adults who also,(me included) have NO idea what they have gotten themselves into. It’s gonna be a blast.
This past week my nerves started to set in. As I run around trying to find everything I(think I) need, somehow fit all of my crap in a 65-liter bag, schedule last-minute farewells with friends and prepare to leave my home of 16 years in a week, a list of unanswered questions begin to race through my mind. annndddd I immediately let those questions overwhelm and distract me from my purpose. Late last night I found myself wide awake asking myself insignificant questions. YES, it is ok to ask questions but, my entire family will tell you that I easily overwhelm myself with even the slightest inconvenience and allow it to affect my mood; as many do. As I asked myself these questions last night I was reminded of the time I spoke at a church who potentially wanted to support my Gap Year. It was a class of at least 30 adults who expectantly waiting for me to deliver a speech that I had only practiced for 5 minutes(I don’t suggest doing that). Despite my lack of preparation, I did not skip a beat. That’s because it WAS NOT ME. The only reason I got through that speech is that He was doing all the work. I remember being excited about what I was talking about and WANTING to tell people what the Lord is doing through the World Race. The next day I told my best pal Katie that, crazy enough, I was living my dream. Super cliché, I know. Yet it’s so true! Instead of worrying over my silly list of questions, the Lord so kindly reminded me of why I even signed up for the race; to love His people and declare His name. My questions may never be answered or they may be answered, and won’t be what I hoped, but that does not diminish His plan for my life. Worrying achieves nothing; especially when you’re walking with an All knowing God.
