On Tuesday I was able to take the day and just rest with Jesus. I had been processing different things and just needed another day to continue. I decided to take a walk with him through the fields behind our house. There is a path that goes along the whole property, it leads you beside beautiful wildflowers and tall grass that makes you feel like your in another world.
I started walking through it feeling the wind whip my hair in different directions. I was captured by the beauty of Gods creations and before I knew it I was spilling my heart out to Him looking at the flowers. I told Him how I felt, the thoughts going through my head, or even what I was frustrated with. Sentence after sentence came out of my heart that was just yearning to talk with God.
I waited for a response from Him but I didn’t get one. I waited for Him to say anything but I was left walking in this field. What I realized is that God doesn’t have to respond to us every time we say something to Him, because He doesn’t have to say anything for us to feel His love. I poured out everything in me to Him waiting for Him to say something but instead my empty heart was filled with overwhelming love.
We expect certain things from God but its what He does that matters not what we want. I expected Him to tell me what to do or what not to do; however, the feeling of love that he put in my heart was so much greater than what I expected.
The bible explains how His plans are so much greater than ours, He is so much greater than our flesh. We out so many expectations into what and who we want God to be but instead we need to fall into just who He already is. He is a healer, a father who just wants to pour love into our hearts. Did He speak to me later? Yes, He did but in that field what I needed to be filled with was not words. It was love from a father who already knows what we need.
