As I get to know more about my upcoming Thailand trip, I also become more and more anxious about the details. What backpack do I buy? How do I raise money? I’ve even found my self stressing over the flight. So, needless to say, there’s been quite a bit of doubting. I often catch myself doubting God in situations like these, or even doubting my ability to interpret where God was leading me.
The last week I have been more anxious about it than I had before, and if I’m honest I haven’t been praying about it how I should. However, through the doubt God was working, as he always does. He has brought different ideas for fundraising to my attention in various ways and has really shown me that this is where he wants me to go. God really does know better than I do.
I’m beginning to see myself relax more, knowing that God has it under control. But he’s also given me the motivation to start getting things done. He’s calmed my spirit and ignited a real fire in me and I want to do nothing but live for him. I’m already seeing how my faith is growing through this experience and I can’t wait to see how he works even more.
God has control. All I need to do is focus on what I need to do today, and know that the future is in God’s complete control.
