In trying to put my experiences and thoughts from the past few days into words, much of it seems to be best told in a whisper from Abba saying, “come back to your first love, my child, you need only to be still.”
Isaiah 62:4-5 says, “No longer will they call you Deserted, or name your land Desolate. But you will be called Hephzibah, and your land Beulah; for the LORD will take delight in you, and your land will be married. As a young man marries a young woman, so will your Builder marry you; as a bridegroom rejoices over his bride, so will your God rejoice over you.”
As I was reading this passage, a song called “Lovesick” by Housefires came on. It says, “there’s a lovesick longing deep inside my soul, there’s a desperate hunger that won’t let me go… no, You cannot deny it, only You satisfy it.”
We were created to be satisfied in Him alone, and the things of this world are constantly trying to steal our affection and attention. Just as He is calling my heart back wholly and fully to His, He’s calling you. Whispering tenderly that He delights in you, and He wants to be your first love. If it’s been hard to hear His voice lately or even for as long as you remember, would you slow down, take a moment to be still, and join me in prayer?
Abba,
Thank you for freely giving me a love I don’t deserve.
For loving me even when my heart strays and runs away from Yours.
For remaining steadfast when I am distant from you and distracted by the world.
I pray that you would teach me how to come back to You, my first love.
That you would meet me where I am and walk me back to You.
That my life would do nothing but glorify Your name.
That I would exist solely for Your fame.
I love You and I trust You.
All of me,
Your Daughter
Thank you so much for your love, support, and prayers along this journey! I’ll do my best to update regularly as God is working and moving in, through, and around me! Remember that mission is not confined to just a trip, but a lifestyle, and God is inviting you to join in His Kingdom building!
All my heart,
Abby
