Yesterday evening, I got off my plane at MSP and was finally back in Minnesota for the first time in 5 months. It was a long process coming home, and I ended up coming home earlier than I thought due to cancelling my trip to Costa Rica (I can explain more if you want to know more). I haven’t even been home for 24 hours, and I’m going through culture shock and a weird transition. I came home to the same house and the same room, and it feels like I’m continuing my life right where I left off in September. I’m questioning whether what I went through really happened, and if I really did live that life. I went from living a life of abandonment in a developing country with a big community to going back to my empty house with a ton of luxuries with no Christian community in sight. I feel weird sleeping in a room by myself, having a bathroom to myself, having a fridge that I don’t share with 25 people, and more. One day I was living one life, and then I got on a plane and am now living a completely different life, which makes me feel like the life I was living before didn’t happen and doesn’t exist. I don’t know how to live without seeing the same 25 people each day and having some of them know everything about what’s going on in my life and hearing how I am day to day. It hasn’t even been 24 hours, and I don’t know how to explain everything going on in my head.
So, I’m currently searching for Christian communities and ways to fill my time with being back. I can continue working for shipt and instacart, but I’m not sure I’m ready for the fast pace of the United States yet or being in a big store again. I don’t know what I’m going to do these next few weeks, and I don’t know how I’ll adjust.
Thank you for all your support these past 9 months, whether financially, spiritually, or just keeping up with my blogs. If anyone wants to hear in-depth stories about what I was doing and the life I was living, I would love to get coffee or lunch with you or even have a call to talk about it all. I’m excited to see everyone again and hear about what’s been going on in everyone else’s life this past year.
