I guess I’ve always had a little bit of fomo. For those of you who don’t know, fomo is the fear of missing out. I think it’s really big in this generation because with social media, we can see what everyone is doing all the time and if we aren’t in on one tiny thing, it hurts a bit.
So I decided to leave everything I’ve ever known for a journey so, so great. This is a once in a lifetime opportunity, a trip that will completely transform my life and all the things I value. I’m ready for that. But I’m utterly terrified of all that I will be missing out on.
I just graduated high school. All my friends are going to college and following the “normal” path for a high school graduate. But that’s just not my normal. It will be, just not now. Sometimes it gets hard to acknowledge that. It’s hard to have to skip things, even now, because my normal’s just a little bit different. It’s bittersweet to see people getting decorations for their dorms and meeting their roomates when I’m getting a backpack and tent, preparing to meet my squad in 2 weeks (!!!!).
Don’t get me wrong, I am way, way excited for this trip. It’s something I’ve wanted to do for years and it really is a dream come true. But with the wait that seemed ages away quickly coming to an end, there’s so much anxiety and fear. I’m terrified everyone will forget about me, that I’ll have no idea what I want to do when I get home and I’ll be a year behind all of my friends. And worst of all, I’m going to miss all the babies in my church growing up.
I’m so worried about all these things that I have no control over and that are in God’s hands. I’m uncertain of what the future holds, but I am sure of the fact that He knows exactly what He is doing. I can rest in knowing that even when things seem a little sad, a little scary, and super exciting, God has an amazing plan and purpose for this upcoming year.
“Who knows if perhaps you were made for just such a time as this?” Esther 4:14
