Hi everyone! As we’re heading into month three, our last month in Swazi (crazy that it’s going so fast!!) I wanted to share with you something that the Lord has been teaching me the last two months. I haven’t had much wifi connection being out in the middle of nowhere so I’ve had lots of time to just sit with the Lord and work through a lot of things. One of the biggest things I’ve learned is that the Lord is steady.
He is steady.
The word steady is defined as firmly fixed, supported or balanced; not shaking or moving. Our God is all of those things in a world that is few of them.
When hard things are brought up that the Lord wants us to process through, it’s easy to feel like you’re on an emotional rollercoaster. In the morning during quiet time Jesus speaks hard truths into hard places and in a few hours we’re laughing and running around with kids. I’m constantly up and down. I love my team with everything I am one minute, and the next I just want to be alone and not talk to anyone. I think I’ll move away and be a missionary forever, and the next second I’m almost in tears because I miss home. Emotions are hard to control and when you have lots and lots of time to think, they can be all over the place.
Jesus is not chaotic, He is steady. He is always calm. He is always loving. He is always truth. He is always good. When I’m worshipping Him and on top of the world, He’s good. When I’m laying in bed awake because I’m scared and miss home and don’t know why I came here, He’s good. He doesn’t change and the more I understand that, the more steady He’s making me.
He’s teaching me that as long as I’m alive, the world will throw things at me that I don’t expect but He already saw it coming and He knows how it ends so I can rest in His goodness.
He’s teaching me that when I think someone is impossible to love and I can’t stand to be around them, that I’ve treated Him the same way and yet He still loves me more than anyone and He’s asked me to love them too.
He’s teaching me that when someone hurts my feelings I could react by hurting them and cause a problem or I could love them and forgive them because that’s what He would do.
He’s unchanging. He’s constant. He’s so so good. I have nothing to fear when I’m in His love and His love is never changing and never ending.
Invite Jesus into that crazy thing in your life that you feel like will never get better. Let His peace enter in and let it change you, then watch it change the situation. He won’t change, He’s so good and He’s just waiting to show you all the things He has for you.
all my love
abby 🙂
Please be praying for my team as we end our ministry time here in Swaziland as it will be really hard and sad to leave our kids at the carepoint.
Please pray for us as one of us will be raised up as a team leader by the end of the month and pray for Moriah as she prepares to end this season on the field.
Please be praying for Kayla, Kaitlyn, and Jessa as they are still fundraising and if you are able, donate!
You’re prayers mean the world to us, thank you!!!!
