Here’s one last blog for you before I head back to Swaziland on Tuesday morning!
Anyone that knows me well, knows that I love the song Open Space. The song says “My heart is an open space for you to come and have your way, I’m
open.” I’ve loved this song for a long time and it’s a fun song to sing along to, but what happens when you actually become an open space?
Since I’ve been on the race I’ve been asked a lot of questions such as “What do you like to do?” or “What are your dreams for the future?” and if I’m honest, I have a really hard time answering them.
Something hard that the first month of the World Race taught me, is that I don’t really know who I am. I base my identity off of the people and places around me and when that’s taken away, I don’t know who I am. The Lord has been speaking a lot into my past and places where I allowed myself to find my worth and identity in other things and other people. He’s not doing this to shame me or punish me but piece by piece He is showing me lies I have believed and inviting me to replace them with truth.
This is not something I wanted to admit, or share with all of you but I know Abba is inviting me into a season of vulnerability so I can start to get rid of lies and doubts and fill them with His truth and with who He says I am. I’m walking into month two a blank slate, ready to just sit with my Father and let Him speak to me and tell me who He says I am. I’m ready to work through the hard and messy things so that He can fill them with the beautiful things He has intended for me.
Saying “I don’t really know who I am” sucks. Saying “Papa show me who You say I am, show me the gifts You have given me to further Your kingdom”
gives me hope.
We serve a really good God. He loves us so much. He created every single thing we can see and touch and yet still He created us because He wanted us. He looked at the whole universe and decided it needed me for a specific purpose. While I can’t see mine right now, I know it’s there and I know it’s good because it’s from the maker of all good things.
Please be praying for me on this journey and for my teammates and all the things they’re walking through. See you in a few weeks!
All my love
abby 🙂
