September 18, 2019
The first week of the race has blown away my expectations and it feels like it’s been a lot longer than a week here in Swaziland.
If I’m being honest, leaving home for me was really, really hard. I am so close to my family and friends and have built such a sweet community. I know I’m going home in nine months, but I know I’m not going home to exactly what I left and that was really hard to process. In a way, I was grieving a beautiful season of life. I love the way my friendships and relationships were when I left and as the Lord has already begun working on my heart, I know those some relationships are going to look different going home.
Something the Lord has been continually speaking over my life the last year and a half is that something being different, doesn’t mean it will be bad.
I’ve entered in to a beautiful season of blind faith but there’s so many good things in that, even when it’s really scary. I’m living in community with 46 people who are on fire for the Lord and pursuing what He has for them. The bonds forming here are something you can’t really explain or understand until
you’re living it.
While being away from home and missing things with my family and friends is HARD, things here are GOOD! The Lord is stretching me and teaching me what is looks like to truly put Him first and put all my trust in Him. The Lord is teaching me how to press into the people He’s given me to walk out this season with and how to trust Him to take care of everyone I left at home. I’ve had so much peace knowing that He loves my people so much more than I ever could and as close as He is to me here, He is close to them at home.
He is holding me, and He is holding you. Nothing is better than that.
All my love
abby 🙂
